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ok i've worn out my welcome here a long time ago , but before i do go i just wanted to explain.
im not trying to excuse my behaviour because what i did wasnt right despite what has happend but hopefully this will give you aa better idea.
in the past 4 months i buried my grandad , i hadnt seen him for 1 year up to the time he died as he was in a hospital in spain with serious lung problems. then 3 weeks later my grandma died and both opf them didnt get to see my new born daughter courtney their 1st great grand daughter. i suppose im just feeling regret or hurt , i dont know since their funerals my head hasnt been the same. i start off meaning to pay someone ( i dont mean to scam them ) but when im half way through i always disregard the fact that my credit card is empty and fail to tell the people that. i dont realy know why i do it , but this sort of thing would not have happend over 4 months ago.
i just want to say that ... doberry .. im really really sorry . i didnt mean for this to happen and i wish that i could change things.
Mike, again im sorry . you didnt deserve any of this ..and dont take it personally.
i am really really sorry . your a great bunch of people and i shouldnt have done what i did. i think it may be down to built up aggression / depression inside about my grandparents that has been building up all this time and then suddenly comes out.
im hoping to see a doctor sometime next week to talk about my depression and hopefully will get my head sorted out.
a lot of you wont belive what im going to say next but it is true and for what its worth ( which at this moment cant be a lot)
exactly 1 month from now i WILL return here and will pay you doberry and Mike for what you did for me... i know your thinking " Yeah ok .. whatever" but i will... i really want to fix this but at the moment i cant
for now though .. doberry i would like you to have the domain you helped me to get i will PM you the details for it soon and will give you the account details so you wont have to pay for a transfer . please accept this until i return with the payment along with my apologies.
Mike , the logo you designed for me.. i deleted from my harddrive. but will still pay you the $40 as promised. and hopefully if you still have it you could send me it again once you have been paid.
im sorry for my behaviour here and understand that no-one here will ever trust me again but i have grown attached to the place hence all my aliases as i couldnt bring myself to dissapear.
anyway .. i hope you can all forgive me in time and i hope i can still keep visiting here , if no-one wants me here then pleasee tell me and i'll try my hardest to stay away.
once again ... im really really sorry for all the trouble ive caused
im not trying to excuse my behaviour because what i did wasnt right despite what has happend but hopefully this will give you aa better idea.
in the past 4 months i buried my grandad , i hadnt seen him for 1 year up to the time he died as he was in a hospital in spain with serious lung problems. then 3 weeks later my grandma died and both opf them didnt get to see my new born daughter courtney their 1st great grand daughter. i suppose im just feeling regret or hurt , i dont know since their funerals my head hasnt been the same. i start off meaning to pay someone ( i dont mean to scam them ) but when im half way through i always disregard the fact that my credit card is empty and fail to tell the people that. i dont realy know why i do it , but this sort of thing would not have happend over 4 months ago.
i just want to say that ... doberry .. im really really sorry . i didnt mean for this to happen and i wish that i could change things.
Mike, again im sorry . you didnt deserve any of this ..and dont take it personally.
i am really really sorry . your a great bunch of people and i shouldnt have done what i did. i think it may be down to built up aggression / depression inside about my grandparents that has been building up all this time and then suddenly comes out.
im hoping to see a doctor sometime next week to talk about my depression and hopefully will get my head sorted out.
a lot of you wont belive what im going to say next but it is true and for what its worth ( which at this moment cant be a lot)
exactly 1 month from now i WILL return here and will pay you doberry and Mike for what you did for me... i know your thinking " Yeah ok .. whatever" but i will... i really want to fix this but at the moment i cant
for now though .. doberry i would like you to have the domain you helped me to get i will PM you the details for it soon and will give you the account details so you wont have to pay for a transfer . please accept this until i return with the payment along with my apologies.
Mike , the logo you designed for me.. i deleted from my harddrive. but will still pay you the $40 as promised. and hopefully if you still have it you could send me it again once you have been paid.
im sorry for my behaviour here and understand that no-one here will ever trust me again but i have grown attached to the place hence all my aliases as i couldnt bring myself to dissapear.
anyway .. i hope you can all forgive me in time and i hope i can still keep visiting here , if no-one wants me here then pleasee tell me and i'll try my hardest to stay away.
once again ... im really really sorry for all the trouble ive caused