well, another day down
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i found myself eating alot of string cheese yesterday- maybe because the reminded me of cigs
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i am sleeping 20 minutes later- not getting up to do my cig routine before i wake the kids for school (we always smoked in the garage- never in the house by the kids)
i know this is for good- altho my mouth wants to smoke something aweful- my head knows its just over. my dad died 2 years ago- 60 years old.... lung cancer- its time to stop for good.
its a shame how something so damaging- something that freely takes away the things you love- can STILL make you want it like never before. its kinda sick ;-(